Thanks to Pale!

You know, ever since I've even been into anime, 
and gone to cons....I just cant make friends...I 
think I have one of those personalities that 
tends to grate on people if they dont know me, or 
they automatically form a preconception about 
me.  A lot of people tend to judge me on 
appearance, or by emails, or they *hear* things 
from others about me, so people just RUN from me 
at cons and things, or give me really cold looks, 
and it's wierd, I never know why. And it's always 
people that I dont even know, or have ever had an 
altercation with.  *sigh* Sadly my whole life has 
always been like that. People hate me before they 
even know me!  Then when they do get to know me, 
they dont know why they ever thought bad of me. 
I'll never forget what this one guy said to me in 
high school years ago.  I didnt know him well, 
but after talking with him for a couple of hours, 
he said "WOW, your not a bitch like everyone says 
you are!"  That had to be nicest thing a guy has 
ever said to me.......wierd I know, but it hit 
home with me. If people dont like me, I want to 
know the reason why, and if they dont know me, I 
at least want the chance to prove myself.

So, it makes me quite nervous when people have a 
problem with me that Im unaware of, especially if 
they dont know me, or are going by something that 
someone else may or may not have told them.  I 
have had a few tiffs with some people, and I fear 
that they have tarnished my name a bit online 
with other collectors or dealers....which to me 
is quite sad considering that this "hobby" can be 
a little cut throat sometimes.  If I stepped on 
toes, I cant remember, and I dont hold grudges, 
and when Im in the wrong, I have always admited 
to being so.  

There were some girls at Az who were VERY cold to 
me, and for the life of me I had no idea why, I'd 
never even spoken to them before excpet 
offhandedly to make an offer or something.  But 
througout the show, everytime I saw them, they 
just shot daggers at me....it really bothered me 
a lot.  Even my friends noticed, and wondered if 
I had done something to them, and I hadn't...that 
I knew of.  This leads me to beleive I have an 
enemy out there who's trying really hard to dirty 
my name.

So, this is sort of a lesson.  NEVER judge 
someone on this forum. It's a machine y'all, and 
this hobby isnt the only thing any of us do in 
our lives.  If we met on the street and started 
talking about music, we might be better freinds 
than if we'd met at a con at a cel gathering.  
Cel collecting is nice, but sometimes it get's 
bad, and people do or say things they wouldnt 
normally do or say.  I feel bad about all the 
times I've yelled at people on here, I cant even 
remember why now. Anyways, I hope whatever those 
girls at Az had against me get's back to me 
somehow.  Id like to know what the deal is, so I 
can try and fix it. 

See you all around!