I was having a nevous breakdown in all this and 
decided to completly do nothing and go after 
nothing at all. There will be other cels and 
well, probably for less. Just had to look back at 
the last cel I got (Seishi praying group cel:) 
and see that I paid less than $300 for it and 
smacked myself. I want to keep what I spend on FY 
cels around that price.

I feel more at peace now. I totaly agree. I would 
not also enjoy or be able to enjoy the cel if it 
brought me grief money wise. I decided to drop 
everything, keep the money I saved up because I'm 
sure I might now have a better chance at whatever 
comes up in the next few updates. Hehehe. I think 
the next week or two is going to be good for me. 
I snagged a lovely Taka cel a few days ago for 
under like 50 bucks at EBAY of all places! My 
god...this needs to happen more often-that was an 
awesome cel too, it might have gone for more, but 
well with this sudden happening...I was VERY 
happy to get it for such a low price.

But well, I did make a huge offer on one of the 
cels and smacked myself tonight. It wasn't as 
pretty as I rememered it when I never did make an 
offer on it. After I did, I was sick and it 
lacked in appeal to me, probably mostly because 
of the offer I made. So, declined. Just all these 
days and well, it gives me time to think things 
out. *shrugs* I felt just a heavy weight on my 
shoulders vanish now. I don't feel so tired and 
stressed. I nearly broke down and screamed in my 
Japanese class tonight because I could not focus. 
I feel much happier now though. 

I have to say though...I paid less than $300 for 
my cel of the Suzaku praying! 
(Nuriko/Mitsukake/Hotohori) And that was near a 
dream cel and is pretty rare. :D Well to me. I 
had to really smack myself. If I'm going to pay 
more than say $400, there better be more than one 
character-a rule I now installed for myself 
unless it was a dream cel, I won't go over that 
limit. 

And Shmecky, you have lovely cels:) Even if we 
both didn't get anything, we still have cels we 
love! You have one of the best collections out 
there! I love what your gallery is and the cels 
you do have! I really don't care now for dropping 
my offers though, just wanted to cry and sigh in 
relief and then grabbed the nearest pint of ice 
cream and some booze to ease my troused nerves 
that made me crazy. I have enough love given to 
me by my babies and well, would feel weird after 
getting something for all the money I had in the 
world right now and with my bills staring at me, 
frowning. Ah, just saying, right now, emotionaly, 
I'm glad I stopped myself. I do admit going a bit 
crazy, but well there was enough time for me to 
settle down and think it over logicly and it was 
hard. When in doubt, chicken out, as my papa 
always said. Ah, plus got my Subaru cel 
today...am well pleased. Will have it scanned 
later! And hopefully get another dream cel too, 
for less than the offers I made. _._